Up to it?

I miss those freedom, carefree life I have in Mauritius. I take charge my own life and take responsibilities for each decision made.
Having being talked to in that sense just don’t make me feel good at all. I don’t like that tone, that conversation at all. I want to be the one taking charge of my own life. Advise, don’t interfere.
Then again, am I up to it? I believe I
Am but I’m just not giving my best. There are a lot of negativity and influences but those are just excuse that allows me to shake the thought of doing my best.
I just know, who I can count on.